Interesting

I'm in the middle of an extremely interesting and possibly dangerous situation. Don't worry, I won't get like killed or anything. It's just a risk. I never take enough of those. So I'm starting now. Love yas. Love MOI.

Miss Kristen Elizabeth

I want everyone to know that I love Kristen with all of my heart, and I trust her with it too. She's had reason to doubt that a little in the past few days, but honestly, it's nothing against her, it's against me. She is obviously one of my favorite people in the whole world, and is the love of my life lol.

Je t'adore!!

Katy

Hallo Everyone

I'm at work and I'm bored, so I am choosing to write basically nothing. I should be working on school stuff, but that takes too much effort and I feel it is not worth it. Love yas. Love MOI!

Another Poem

Not Anymore

I’m lying on the ground,
Staring at the ceiling,
There’s no one else around,
I’m alone with my feelings,
I’m lost inside a heart,
That’s been broken before,
It’s still getting torn apart,
Every time I am ignored,
I try to make you listen,
But I cannot make you hear,
These words, to you, I’m giving,
From this heart you don’t hold dear,
So instead I’m giving up,
Because I cannot make you see,
That the love you’ve always wanted,
Has been living inside me.

More Poetry

Longing

I see myself clearly,
A reflection of everything I’ve never wanted,
Tormented by things I can’t have,
Dreams unfulfilled, hopes shattered,
Left broken as the heart inside,
Always wishing for useless desires,
Never seen as more than a nuisance,
To be tossed aside at a whim,
And loved as no more,
Such is the turmoil haunting the conscious mind,
Love and hate balanced in equal measure,
To be distributed at will by the one person,
That has control over the heart,
Broken or whole,
But never treasured,
Belonging to the one who will never want it,
As the heart yearns, so the tears fall,
Listening to words of love promised to another.

Lost

Eyes drift closed,
Shutting out the light,
Cloaking the world in darkness,
Black smudges shifting,
Shaping images you know,
Places you’ve been,
People you’ve known,
Things you’ve seen,
Then it’s you alone,
No other within eye range,
Looking for the images you crave,
The places you’ve been,
Forgotten,
The people you’ve known,
Erased,
The things you’ve seen,
Invisible,
Just you so confused,
Lost in the barren wasteland,
The infinite stretch of nothingness,
You shudder and fall,
Crying for the images lost,
Eyes drift open,
Who are you?

Magic

Can you feel the magic,
Pouring out of me,
In my thoughts and in my words,
In what I’ve come to be.

The power that I hold,
That shimmers in the air,
The comfort that I leave,
For everyone to share.

I’m living my life through this magic,
I’m giving my time to make this right,
Though our lives can be so tragic,
I’m stepping in to help you win this fight,
And even though you don’t believe,
That this magic is for real,
All your pain will be relieved,
Magic heals.

Make Whole

One poison dart,
Shoots straight through the heart,
For every word unspoken,
Another hole starts,
But for every rare instant,
That the words aren’t so distant,
A hole fills back up,
With the love first resisted.

Our Love

It’s a feeling that I get,
It’s that sparkle in my eyes,
It’s something I won’t regret,
It’s a blessing in disguise.

It’s a mystery,
Oh baby can’t you see,

It’s our love,We’ll always be together,
From heaven above,
Through the rain and stormy weather,
It’s what I dreamt of,
My heart’s light as a feather,
Oh baby can’t you see,
Our love is everything to me.

Storms

Storms threaten,
A scent on the wind,
A sizzle in the air,
Scraping against the senses,
A warning to be heeded,
Lightning flashes,
Thunder rumbles,
A beat of a drum,
As much primitive as angry,
Sounding against the sky,
Enhancing the unnatural dusk,
One individual stands,
At the center of the primal stab of wind,
Reveling in the ferocity of the storm,
One in anger,
One in right,
Mindless to the danger,
Sheltered in its eye,
The wind picks up speed,
The clouds at breaking point,
Rains fall in a torrent,
Drenching those individuals,
That never felt the wind,
Or saw the clouds.

Suffocation

The noxious fumes enter my lungs, sweeping through the tunnels, where breath equals life, closing out the oxygen, destroying precious air, the gases enter my blood, draining out my soul, as you hold the pillow over my face, suffocating me with your hate, I can’t escape the haze, the disgust you’ve always aimed, for whatever reason, destroying my only chance at happiness, the noxious fumes leave my lungs, sweeping out of the tunnels, no longer needing the precious air, you got what you wanted, I’m gone.

Think of Me

Think of me,
When you're all alone,
How the time has gone by,
How fast I've grown.

Think of me,
When you see a smile,
Because I'm always happy,
And smiles are worthwhile.

Think of me,
When you get a hug,
Because affection is key,
When it comes to love.

Think of me,
And think of the times,
That I made you laugh,
With my silly rhymes.

Think of me,
When times get tough,
And always remember,
When the going gets rough,
That I'll come running,
No matter what.

Tribute to Friendship

Thinking of the past,
Of the mistakes that I have made,
Of the friends I used to have,
And the ones I have today,
They come in all varieties,
The just love to have fun,
They’d rather play for one whole day,
Than get anything done,
Not one of them is perfect,
But they all stay in my heart,
Because they stick right by me,
They have right from the start,
So if you really love your friends,
Make sure to let them know,
‘Cause if you need a shoulder to cry on,
You’ll have somewhere to go,
This is a tribute to the ones,
You miss when you’re apart,
So keep your friends right next to you,
As well as in your heart.

Any Poetry (ones that i haven't posted)

Belief

Behind my eyes,
Inside my head,
You’d be surprised,
To find instead,

Not thoughts or hopes,
No brain or nerves,
No ability to cope,
No feelings preserved,

From when you left,
They all disappeared,
All pain is bereft,
My conscious is cleared.

Bitter Words

The words aren’t sweet,
Neither simple nor true,
But are riddled with arrows,
That slice neatly through,
The truth of the words,
Given simply and sweet,
From the tenderest of hearts,
Backing away from defeat,
As time passes on,
The arrows fade away,
But the heart is left broken,
On the sleeve where it lay.

Blood on Your Hands

I leave my heart within your grasp,
The love of which is yours to keep,
But do not squeeze too tightly,
For on your hands the blood will seep,

Between your knuckles it will run,
A crimson flood of wants and needs,
Stemming from a tender heart,
Bruising even as it bleeds,

I left my heart within your grasp,
But no warning did you heed,
Instead you squeezed too tightly,
Until no blood was left to bleed.

Buried Alive

Shivering in the closeness,
Breathing without air,
Dirt a constant odor,
Seeping in from everywhere,
Feel the rumblings of the earth
Shaking overhead,
Trying to make yourself be heard,
Sickened by your dread,
Feel the burning in your lungs,
The pressure growing strong,
Constricted muscles agonized,
Without air far too long,
Make one last effort to survive,
To make your presence known,
All last attempts are futile,
For in here you’re all alone.

Christmas Time Again

Its Christmas time again,
A time for family and fun,
Filled with memories from years past,
When traditions first begun.

All the people gathered 'round,
Laughter ringing through the air,
As the stories pass from ear to ear,
By everyone who’s there.

All the plans are made for presents,
To be passed on down the line,
To adults and children all the same,
You see their faces shine.

It’s the bond that people share,
Through the joy and all good cheer,
As we spend these days together,
It’s the most special time of year.

Cold

I’m cold after all the times I’ve been burned in the past. I know that the next time will certainly not be the last. But I could only wish that people knew how much I keep sealed behind the slowly crumbling happiness I use as a shield. I’m not the person you think, the constantly chipper girl. It’s just the image I project to the rest of the world to keep people from thinking that I am miserably weak. If you spent enough time you’d probably see the cold streak that I’ve built up as a defense against the darts that you aim; striking on my tender heart and bursting into flame. So I put my pain on ice, wait for scars to heal and hope that never will you have to feel what I feel.

Death

Stabbed over and over with icy needles of fear,
Seeing you dying slowly before my eyes,
Screaming and crying, rocking back and forth,
Spasms racking through your chilled body,
Shivers icy like death against your skin,
Shudders of breath coursing through my lungs as I’m,
Stumbling to the shell of you,
Soulless and lifeless on the ground,
She sucked the spirit from your veins,
Sweat left to dry on your motionless corpse,
Shouts of terror leaving my burning throat,
Saving you has become impossible.

Fighter

You think that I'm so innocent,
I couldn't hurt a fly,
But if you really knew me,
That'd be the furthest from your mind.

I can bicker with the best,
I'm a fighter till the end,
Any other way you see me,
You made up inside your head.

I get angry,
I get violent,
I'm not moody,
I'm not silent,

I exchange harsh words,
I scream and yell,
If you piss me off,
You can go to hell.

I won't just sit,
And let it slide,
You rile me up,
You're bound to find.

A bloody nose,
A big black eye,
So be afraid,
When I come by.

Cause I'm a bitch,
I don't pretend,
You mess with me,
You meet your end!

Friends Forever

For the way you care,
Reading between the lines,
Instead of looking at the surface,
Expecting nothing in return,
No payment is required,
Doing anything to make me smile,
Sometimes I take it for granted,
Forgetting all you’ve done,
Overlooking the special moments,
Remembering the bad instead of the good,
Every fight and mistake,
Vying for attention they don’t deserve,
Every good memory is a treasure,
Remembered forever like the person they’re made with.

I Want You Back

I keep closing my eyes,
Just so I can see your face,
Replaying precious memories,
That cannot be erased,
All the times you laughed,
Because I tickled you so much,
And kissing you on the forehead,
Because I needed that simple touch,
But dreams are meant for sleeping,
Because they cause me too much pain,
Knowing that you're off without me,
Is driving me insane,
I can't help but miss those moments,
When I had you by my side,
Walking down along the beach,
Getting our feet wet in the tide,
I'd do anything to get you,
Back in my arms to stay,
Because living without you near me,
Is becoming harder every day,
I've tried to block the memories,
Move on, Find someone new,
But I know that it's impossible,
Because no one compares to you,
I'm won't be surprised if you're not willing,
To cut me any slack,
But I'm sorry for everything I've done wrong,
And I really want you back.

I'm Better

If you think you’re better,
Think again,
I can do so much better,
Than you can,
I’m a perfect princess,
At any time,
You in comparison,Are less than slime,
I’m gorgeous, gifted,
And oh so great,
The kind of person,
You love to hate,
Because you know,
That I’m the best,
And you are no more,
Than a pest!

Insight

I’m stuck in a rut of unwanted love, giving all I have but never enough, waiting for acceptance that never quite comes, feeling useless and finally ready to succumb, to the ever growing need to give up on useless hopes, finally taking action, don’t wanna sit around and mope, over worthless thoughts and wishes with which I have to cope, being tugged into the madness by an ever growing rope, dealing with desires that can never quite be met, living in a world of loneliness and needs that I regret, trying not to remember pains but I can never quite forget, all the times that tears of sadness left my miserable eyes wet, I’m waiting for the days when I can finally be free, of the need for the affection that is never given to me, and I know it would be worth it if only someone would see, that all I ever wanted was for someone to see me.

Invisible

No face,
No arms,
No legs,
No voice,
No person here,
The space is clear,
She disappeared,
Without a choice,
No thoughts,
No hopes,
No fears,
No dreams,
No person here,
The space is clear,
She disappeared,
Or so it seems,
No brain,
No lungs,
No nerves,
No heart,
No person here,
The space is clear,
She disappeared,
She fell apart,
No love,
No fun,
No joy,
No birth,
No person here,
The space is clear,
She disappeared,
She’s of no worth,
No home,
No car,
No windows,
No door,
No person here,
The space is clear,
I disappeared,
I’m here no more.

Random

I'm kinda sick of people making completely false judgments of my character. I'm over the first one, but the second one is just ridiculous. Apparently, I'm an evil individual that judges others because of what other people tell me about them. I don't know when I became this way, but apparently I did, so yeah. Fantastic, I suppose. I guess the friends that I have that others have warned me away from are non-existent... sorry for any of you non-existent people if you ever happen to read this... Well, yeah. That's it.

LOVE MOI

Sooooooooooooooo

It's been a while since I've spent any time on this but maybe I'll start more often since I'm nearing the end of high school. Good Lord, I'm nearing the end of high school. Seems unnatural doesn't it... Oh well. It'll be ok. <3 yas.
Katy

First time

This is the first time I've updated in like forever. I'm bored outta my mind!!! Leave a comment. Love yas.
KATY

Wow

This summer is going by pretty fast. For all who didn't know, which I believe is like all of you, I went on vacation this past week at a resort on a lake in TN. It was awesome. I got really tan :-D I have new music favorites as of now. Breath by Breaking Benjamin is my current favorite. It's on the playlist right above all the Thousand Foot Krutch songs if you wanna hear it. Well, that's just about it for now. Love you all.

KATY

Summertime

It's been an interesting summer so far to say the least. I've had fun with my two bestest friends Alex and Kristen, although I wish I could hang out with the rest of you more often. I haven't seen you guys in forever. I miss ya :-D But yeah, I'm tired so I'm gonna go lay down for a while. Love yas.
KATY

Blah

I'm bored out of my mind... that is if I had a mind. Plus I'm really really really hungry!!!!! So I'm gonna go eat for right now. Love yas!
KATY

Music Player

Click on Create a Playlist underneath the one I have. You have to create an account first but when you get there, you'll get to a box that says Take Us For a Spin. Underneath that it says search for music. Click on that. Type in the title and artist that sings what song you want and results will pop up underneath. Click on the plus button. Double click on the play button so that it will preview your song. Make sure it works and that the song is what you want, then add it to your playlist. After you have your playlist how you want it, you can hit a button that says get the code for Myspace, blogger, etc. After you click on the code for blog, choose the playlist, there should only be one choice, set the player how you want it, with color and etc, and get the code. Copy that code, then go to your blog and click on customize in the top right corner. Click on Add a Page Element, and choose HTML/Java Script. Paste the code there and save changes and you have your music player on your blog. Love yas,
KATY

New Music Playlist

I've figured out a way to add this new playlist to my blog!!! Yay!!! So listen to the 6th song, my reigning favorite, Move by Thousand Foot Krutch!!
Love yas,
Katy

Bakery

WORK WORK WORK!!!! Nah, it's not that bad, when I'm at the bakery that is. Boring maybe, but not that bad. McDs?? SUCKS!! lol. That's all I got. Leave comments.
Love yas,
KATY

Stop Sign (Poem)

I'm taking one last look... at the twisted road my life once took... the ups, the downs, the dangerous curves... the increasing speed of thrumming nerves... the railroad tracks, slow moving trains... and all the times we had to wait... the caution signs of things gone wrong... the work zones that made us strong... the biggest hills and steepest drops... and all the things we wish we'd stopped... So now I'm taking one last look... at the twisted road my life once took... and all these things I'll leave behind... as I come upon this last stop sign.

Migraine Headaches and the people that get them

First off, yesterday was a killer. I got a migraine at the bakery (it seems to be an epidemic, I had one last time too!) and it was horrible. I turned the lights off and then people thought I was weird, cause it's the middle of the day and I'm sitting in an office without the lights on (no windows). Well ya know what, LIGHT HURTS!!! Anyway, today was boring and I have to get ready for the Honors Banquet (fun fun :-( yeah right) so I'll ttyl. Love yas.
KATY

McD Relationships

Some may find my relationships with people at McD's to be innappropriate or perverted... I call it fun :-D!!!

Examples:

Ben: On his birthday card, I wrote, " Happy Birthday Ben. I love you more than anything. (I look forward to shaking the bun trays with you)
Perverted??? Not really. If you knew my relationship with Ben, you'd probably think it was
much more normal.

Sammy: When it was pouring tonight, I went out and got all wet. He commented that he loved getting me wet. I replied that he didn't do it, the rain did. His response? "Honey, I made it rain"
Perverted??? Maybe if you don't know me and Sammy. That's normal and that's the kind of
jokes that we make. Sound bad??? ehh a little. do I care??? nope.

Forget About You (finished product)

Misplaced affections,
Getting tossed back in your face,
Scrambling back from twisted daydreams,
Struggling to find a place,

Where you can forget her shadow,
That lingers by your side,
Causing nothing more than misery,
And these wrenching pains inside.

I thought I knew you,
Thought you were just what you said,
Now I realize my mistake,
But you're still stuck in my head.

I can't...
Forget the feelings that you brought out,
I can't...
Forget the things I thought I knew,
I can't...
Forget the way you felt beside me,
And no I CAN'T...
Forget about YOU!

Unspoken feelings,
Sitting bitter on your lips,
Now that all your hopes and wishes,
Have come thrashing down like whips,

That are wielded by the one,
Who you trusted above all,
When all she ever really wanted,
Was to see you crawl,

I thought I knew you,
Thought you were just what you said,
Now I realize my mistake,
But you're still stuck in my head.

I can't...
Forget the feelings that you brought out,
I can't...
Forget the things I thought I knew,
I can't...
Forget the way you felt beside me,
And no I CAN'T...
Forget about YOU!

I can't...
Forget the feelings that you brought out,
No I can't...
Forget the things I thought I knew,
I can't...
Forget the way you felt beside me,
And no I CAN'T...
Forget about YOU!

PROM!

So yeah, prom was freakin awesome. I mean, yes it got boring after a while, but it was pretty fun. We had our little problems like getting a table for all of us to sit at and then there was the whole music issue (which I personally liked but that's because that's the type of music I listen to the most) that some people had a problem with lol. We had our own little dancing group as well in which Daniel performed the ever famous lawn mower?? and then some sort of creature afterwards. And he did the chipmunk I believe if I am remembering correctly. Don't ask :-D

But yes, my dress was GORGEOUS! lol I loved it. My hair took forever but I thought that it looked really good. The food was ok. It's not the type of thing that I would like to eat every day but it was pretty good. The DJ was ok except he didn't play ANY of my requests which completely sucked.

Tyler finally got an idea of what it's like to hear me sing lol. It just so happened that the slow song that he and I danced to was one of which I know all of the words (somewhat unfortunately considering I only know the words because my ex Cory left the lyrics to it in a message to me when we were dating lol echh). I'm still waitin for the whole band contract lol J/K! Hmmm I think Patrick was mad at me the whole night because his mom made him ride with me instead of him taking the car that he wanted to take. Oh well. He just had to suffer. I stopped at McD's to show off as well how beautiful all of us were lol. It was awesome.

Plus, I think Tyler, being his first in a string of probably 3 proms (if he attends all of them during high school) had fun which was a big plus cause hanging out with me and Kristen can be kinda weird at times :-D

Daniel was pretty much all entertainment for the evening. With our tangos galore and him carrying me around and posing for pictures with him, it was quite fun. I'm gonna be so happy when I develop the pictures. I plan on getting them put onto a CD so that I can just send them to all of the people that want them. It'd cost too much otherwise. Seeing as I have 3 full cameras :-)

Well I think I have written quite enough for a prom blog. Hope y'all had fun too.
Love yas,

KATY