Another Poem

Not Anymore

I’m lying on the ground,
Staring at the ceiling,
There’s no one else around,
I’m alone with my feelings,
I’m lost inside a heart,
That’s been broken before,
It’s still getting torn apart,
Every time I am ignored,
I try to make you listen,
But I cannot make you hear,
These words, to you, I’m giving,
From this heart you don’t hold dear,
So instead I’m giving up,
Because I cannot make you see,
That the love you’ve always wanted,
Has been living inside me.

More Poetry

Longing

I see myself clearly,
A reflection of everything I’ve never wanted,
Tormented by things I can’t have,
Dreams unfulfilled, hopes shattered,
Left broken as the heart inside,
Always wishing for useless desires,
Never seen as more than a nuisance,
To be tossed aside at a whim,
And loved as no more,
Such is the turmoil haunting the conscious mind,
Love and hate balanced in equal measure,
To be distributed at will by the one person,
That has control over the heart,
Broken or whole,
But never treasured,
Belonging to the one who will never want it,
As the heart yearns, so the tears fall,
Listening to words of love promised to another.

Lost

Eyes drift closed,
Shutting out the light,
Cloaking the world in darkness,
Black smudges shifting,
Shaping images you know,
Places you’ve been,
People you’ve known,
Things you’ve seen,
Then it’s you alone,
No other within eye range,
Looking for the images you crave,
The places you’ve been,
Forgotten,
The people you’ve known,
Erased,
The things you’ve seen,
Invisible,
Just you so confused,
Lost in the barren wasteland,
The infinite stretch of nothingness,
You shudder and fall,
Crying for the images lost,
Eyes drift open,
Who are you?

Magic

Can you feel the magic,
Pouring out of me,
In my thoughts and in my words,
In what I’ve come to be.

The power that I hold,
That shimmers in the air,
The comfort that I leave,
For everyone to share.

I’m living my life through this magic,
I’m giving my time to make this right,
Though our lives can be so tragic,
I’m stepping in to help you win this fight,
And even though you don’t believe,
That this magic is for real,
All your pain will be relieved,
Magic heals.

Make Whole

One poison dart,
Shoots straight through the heart,
For every word unspoken,
Another hole starts,
But for every rare instant,
That the words aren’t so distant,
A hole fills back up,
With the love first resisted.

Our Love

It’s a feeling that I get,
It’s that sparkle in my eyes,
It’s something I won’t regret,
It’s a blessing in disguise.

It’s a mystery,
Oh baby can’t you see,

It’s our love,We’ll always be together,
From heaven above,
Through the rain and stormy weather,
It’s what I dreamt of,
My heart’s light as a feather,
Oh baby can’t you see,
Our love is everything to me.

Storms

Storms threaten,
A scent on the wind,
A sizzle in the air,
Scraping against the senses,
A warning to be heeded,
Lightning flashes,
Thunder rumbles,
A beat of a drum,
As much primitive as angry,
Sounding against the sky,
Enhancing the unnatural dusk,
One individual stands,
At the center of the primal stab of wind,
Reveling in the ferocity of the storm,
One in anger,
One in right,
Mindless to the danger,
Sheltered in its eye,
The wind picks up speed,
The clouds at breaking point,
Rains fall in a torrent,
Drenching those individuals,
That never felt the wind,
Or saw the clouds.

Suffocation

The noxious fumes enter my lungs, sweeping through the tunnels, where breath equals life, closing out the oxygen, destroying precious air, the gases enter my blood, draining out my soul, as you hold the pillow over my face, suffocating me with your hate, I can’t escape the haze, the disgust you’ve always aimed, for whatever reason, destroying my only chance at happiness, the noxious fumes leave my lungs, sweeping out of the tunnels, no longer needing the precious air, you got what you wanted, I’m gone.

Think of Me

Think of me,
When you're all alone,
How the time has gone by,
How fast I've grown.

Think of me,
When you see a smile,
Because I'm always happy,
And smiles are worthwhile.

Think of me,
When you get a hug,
Because affection is key,
When it comes to love.

Think of me,
And think of the times,
That I made you laugh,
With my silly rhymes.

Think of me,
When times get tough,
And always remember,
When the going gets rough,
That I'll come running,
No matter what.

Tribute to Friendship

Thinking of the past,
Of the mistakes that I have made,
Of the friends I used to have,
And the ones I have today,
They come in all varieties,
The just love to have fun,
They’d rather play for one whole day,
Than get anything done,
Not one of them is perfect,
But they all stay in my heart,
Because they stick right by me,
They have right from the start,
So if you really love your friends,
Make sure to let them know,
‘Cause if you need a shoulder to cry on,
You’ll have somewhere to go,
This is a tribute to the ones,
You miss when you’re apart,
So keep your friends right next to you,
As well as in your heart.

Any Poetry (ones that i haven't posted)

Belief

Behind my eyes,
Inside my head,
You’d be surprised,
To find instead,

Not thoughts or hopes,
No brain or nerves,
No ability to cope,
No feelings preserved,

From when you left,
They all disappeared,
All pain is bereft,
My conscious is cleared.

Bitter Words

The words aren’t sweet,
Neither simple nor true,
But are riddled with arrows,
That slice neatly through,
The truth of the words,
Given simply and sweet,
From the tenderest of hearts,
Backing away from defeat,
As time passes on,
The arrows fade away,
But the heart is left broken,
On the sleeve where it lay.

Blood on Your Hands

I leave my heart within your grasp,
The love of which is yours to keep,
But do not squeeze too tightly,
For on your hands the blood will seep,

Between your knuckles it will run,
A crimson flood of wants and needs,
Stemming from a tender heart,
Bruising even as it bleeds,

I left my heart within your grasp,
But no warning did you heed,
Instead you squeezed too tightly,
Until no blood was left to bleed.

Buried Alive

Shivering in the closeness,
Breathing without air,
Dirt a constant odor,
Seeping in from everywhere,
Feel the rumblings of the earth
Shaking overhead,
Trying to make yourself be heard,
Sickened by your dread,
Feel the burning in your lungs,
The pressure growing strong,
Constricted muscles agonized,
Without air far too long,
Make one last effort to survive,
To make your presence known,
All last attempts are futile,
For in here you’re all alone.

Christmas Time Again

Its Christmas time again,
A time for family and fun,
Filled with memories from years past,
When traditions first begun.

All the people gathered 'round,
Laughter ringing through the air,
As the stories pass from ear to ear,
By everyone who’s there.

All the plans are made for presents,
To be passed on down the line,
To adults and children all the same,
You see their faces shine.

It’s the bond that people share,
Through the joy and all good cheer,
As we spend these days together,
It’s the most special time of year.

Cold

I’m cold after all the times I’ve been burned in the past. I know that the next time will certainly not be the last. But I could only wish that people knew how much I keep sealed behind the slowly crumbling happiness I use as a shield. I’m not the person you think, the constantly chipper girl. It’s just the image I project to the rest of the world to keep people from thinking that I am miserably weak. If you spent enough time you’d probably see the cold streak that I’ve built up as a defense against the darts that you aim; striking on my tender heart and bursting into flame. So I put my pain on ice, wait for scars to heal and hope that never will you have to feel what I feel.

Death

Stabbed over and over with icy needles of fear,
Seeing you dying slowly before my eyes,
Screaming and crying, rocking back and forth,
Spasms racking through your chilled body,
Shivers icy like death against your skin,
Shudders of breath coursing through my lungs as I’m,
Stumbling to the shell of you,
Soulless and lifeless on the ground,
She sucked the spirit from your veins,
Sweat left to dry on your motionless corpse,
Shouts of terror leaving my burning throat,
Saving you has become impossible.

Fighter

You think that I'm so innocent,
I couldn't hurt a fly,
But if you really knew me,
That'd be the furthest from your mind.

I can bicker with the best,
I'm a fighter till the end,
Any other way you see me,
You made up inside your head.

I get angry,
I get violent,
I'm not moody,
I'm not silent,

I exchange harsh words,
I scream and yell,
If you piss me off,
You can go to hell.

I won't just sit,
And let it slide,
You rile me up,
You're bound to find.

A bloody nose,
A big black eye,
So be afraid,
When I come by.

Cause I'm a bitch,
I don't pretend,
You mess with me,
You meet your end!

Friends Forever

For the way you care,
Reading between the lines,
Instead of looking at the surface,
Expecting nothing in return,
No payment is required,
Doing anything to make me smile,
Sometimes I take it for granted,
Forgetting all you’ve done,
Overlooking the special moments,
Remembering the bad instead of the good,
Every fight and mistake,
Vying for attention they don’t deserve,
Every good memory is a treasure,
Remembered forever like the person they’re made with.

I Want You Back

I keep closing my eyes,
Just so I can see your face,
Replaying precious memories,
That cannot be erased,
All the times you laughed,
Because I tickled you so much,
And kissing you on the forehead,
Because I needed that simple touch,
But dreams are meant for sleeping,
Because they cause me too much pain,
Knowing that you're off without me,
Is driving me insane,
I can't help but miss those moments,
When I had you by my side,
Walking down along the beach,
Getting our feet wet in the tide,
I'd do anything to get you,
Back in my arms to stay,
Because living without you near me,
Is becoming harder every day,
I've tried to block the memories,
Move on, Find someone new,
But I know that it's impossible,
Because no one compares to you,
I'm won't be surprised if you're not willing,
To cut me any slack,
But I'm sorry for everything I've done wrong,
And I really want you back.

I'm Better

If you think you’re better,
Think again,
I can do so much better,
Than you can,
I’m a perfect princess,
At any time,
You in comparison,Are less than slime,
I’m gorgeous, gifted,
And oh so great,
The kind of person,
You love to hate,
Because you know,
That I’m the best,
And you are no more,
Than a pest!

Insight

I’m stuck in a rut of unwanted love, giving all I have but never enough, waiting for acceptance that never quite comes, feeling useless and finally ready to succumb, to the ever growing need to give up on useless hopes, finally taking action, don’t wanna sit around and mope, over worthless thoughts and wishes with which I have to cope, being tugged into the madness by an ever growing rope, dealing with desires that can never quite be met, living in a world of loneliness and needs that I regret, trying not to remember pains but I can never quite forget, all the times that tears of sadness left my miserable eyes wet, I’m waiting for the days when I can finally be free, of the need for the affection that is never given to me, and I know it would be worth it if only someone would see, that all I ever wanted was for someone to see me.

Invisible

No face,
No arms,
No legs,
No voice,
No person here,
The space is clear,
She disappeared,
Without a choice,
No thoughts,
No hopes,
No fears,
No dreams,
No person here,
The space is clear,
She disappeared,
Or so it seems,
No brain,
No lungs,
No nerves,
No heart,
No person here,
The space is clear,
She disappeared,
She fell apart,
No love,
No fun,
No joy,
No birth,
No person here,
The space is clear,
She disappeared,
She’s of no worth,
No home,
No car,
No windows,
No door,
No person here,
The space is clear,
I disappeared,
I’m here no more.

Stop Sign (Poem)

I'm taking one last look... at the twisted road my life once took... the ups, the downs, the dangerous curves... the increasing speed of thrumming nerves... the railroad tracks, slow moving trains... and all the times we had to wait... the caution signs of things gone wrong... the work zones that made us strong... the biggest hills and steepest drops... and all the things we wish we'd stopped... So now I'm taking one last look... at the twisted road my life once took... and all these things I'll leave behind... as I come upon this last stop sign.

I just wanna write so I'm going to

I'm lost in the wilderness that I call my mind,
Struggling against the thickening vines that cling to my conscious brain,
They're choking me, blocking out all free air,
As the thorns rip through the threads of my true feelings,
I realize that there's no way out,
Unless I fight against the cords that are holding me down,
If I just use the things I'm given to break through the densest of fogs,
A clearing in the brush of useless memories will appear,
No more will I be held back by the fear of success,
I can move forward, freeing the cobwebs that stick in my head,
Finally getting the relief that I've been longing for,
The vines that have wrapped around me will be cut down,
I can walk freely on this newly found path,
Towards the dreams that I've been looking for,
And never seemed to find,
I can finally have my freedom from this web of tangled desires,
And focus on the sole purpose I have come to recognize,
I need to find my destined path,
And follow wherever it leads,
If I want to leave this wilderness,
And finally reach my dreams.

I feel like trying to write another song.

A Friend Like You

Have you ever been torn?
Felt like you were ripped in two?
Hid inside your head and waited?
Hoping someone would find you?

Have you ever been alone?
And wondered what you did wrong?
To find yourself where you,
Don't wanna belong?

Well I have,
And it is the worst feeling,
You couldn't imagine,
What I've been through,
And I have,
Hoped that someday you'd see me,
And realize that I,
Could use a friend like you.

Have you ever watched the rain?
Pouring down from the sky?
And wished it was as easy,
To let tears fall from your eyes?

Have you ever seen the sun?
Shining down on the trees?
And wished the heat that fell there,
Could somehow make your heart unfreeze?

Well I have,
And it is the worst feeling,
You couldn't imagine,
What I've been through,
And I have,
Hoped that someday you'd see me,
And realize that I,
Could use a friend like you.

Put yourself into my place,
How you'd feel if you were stuck this way,
Maybe then you'll finally see,
Why someone like you, Could help someone like me.

Well I want,
To be the one to tell you,
That life doesn't always go right,
And I wish,
That you could somehow see through,
The imperfections of the outside,
To the beautiful person I am... inside.

Don't ask why that's so sad. I wouldn't know the answer. But I've made it up as I went along with a way to sing it. Maybe I'll sing it for you if I ever think about it or you ask or something. Dunno. Nighttime. Love yas.

KATY

New Poem (Sheer Horror)

Sweat... glistening as it rolls down the rigid path of your back,
The fear brings bumps to the sensitive flesh on your bones,
Chills rack your frozen body,
As breath is choked out in wheezing gasps,
Screams echo in your head,
Your own or someone elses,
No one knows,
Only one predominant thought,
Must get out,
Must escape,
The sheer horror of it all blocks all rationality,
You wait for the fate you can no longer deny,
Fog rolls in as you come to realize,
That your greatest fear is fear itself.

Birthday

5 more days. That's it. I can't believe I'm gonna be 17 in 5 days. It just seems unreal to me. Heck, I still remember when I turned 13 for crying out loud. I remember the party that I had when Amanda M. and Amanda H. hated each other and so Amanda M. threw a pillow at Amanda H., missed, and hit our lamp instead, causing it to fall off of the table it was on. That was the WORST party ever I think. I got so pissed at people. Plus, I got pissed at my sister because she kept hanging around with me and my friends. Grrr... Anyways, yeah, pretty much everyone is invited. Sorry to Karolyn and Krista and Sylvia and all them but this kinda didn't get planned for sure until like this past Friday and even then it wasn't concrete. So a lot of people that I would have invited have plans already for Saturday (which is my b-day not just the day of the party). Next year maybe. I'll make sure and send you guys special invitations. But for anyone who I've talked to from school that knows they can come, the party will basically be movies, games, and FOOD!!! I do need clues for movies you guys want to watch just like Matt. Tell me your scary movie, funny movie, sad movie, chick flick, action movie, fantasy movie etc. preferences because I want to get something from every genre, that way there's something everyone will like. It doesn't matter if you've seen it, just give me your favorite movie from those categories. As for games, there will NOT be any straw/Q-tip wars and I will probably not play the couch game. I was thinking more like fun board games/tournaments or playin outside if it's nice enough out. It should be fun so I hope you guys don't miss it. I really want the people that I have talked to to come, i.e. Daniel, Chris, Storm, Francisco, Matt, Alex, Sammy, Kristen, Mary (maybe if she can), Patrick, Meghan if she wants, Nikki, Rodney, and I think that's about it. I could invite work people besides Sammy but I doubt people would want to come lol. Oh well. (Let me just add in here that I find it EXTREMELY FUNNY that there are only hmm... 5 of the 13 people mentioned above GIRLS!!!) I know we'll have fun anyways, no matter how many people come. I remember when I wanted to throw just a small party last year or maybe that was the year before, like NO ONE CAME!! It sucked :'( I was very unhappy. But yeah.

For other news. I got in the mail yesterday or the day before, can't remember which, a letter from Creative Communication (a contest place) that I may be a finalist for an essay contest that i entered. They mainly sent the letter to try to get me to buy a book but regardless, I may still be in the running for prize money. Funny, I never thought I would be eligible to win an ESSAY contest. I've been a finalist for plenty of POETRY contests but this is different. I'm not that big on essays and long writing. Oh well, good news is good news. And I guess it kinda counts that the essay that i wrote was about Poetry :-D I'll never change.

I'm good for now.
Love yas,
KATY

Recent Poetry

Doesn't really need a title. The most appropriate would be Hurt

It hurts,
There's no medicine to ease this pain,
And I'm going insane,
Thinking I'm the one at fault,
If I would just back off,
And keep my feelings to myself,
People wouldn't run to somebody else,
To tell about the things I've done wrong,
Living my life like I was in a country song,
Full of misplaced affection,
My direction,
Needs to take on a whole new turn,
I don't want to get burned,
Anymore,
My recent wounds are still pretty sore,
It's not worth it,
To pick the scabs and start again,
With the same pain I got in the very beginning,
So as I wait for the healing,
The cooling sense of relief,
You're sitting there wondering,
Is this poem about me?

^ You know who you are. I told you that I would write about it. It's not written to hurt you. It's just how I felt.

Wake Up Call

Is this my wake up call,
I answer the loudly ringing phone,
Hey Katy, wake up, you've always been on your own,
No one cares, except for the occasional few,
Why would you think anyone would ever care for you,
Do you think that you're worth it,
That you're really enough,
That you can overcome the obstacles,
And gain everyone's love,
It's not going to happen,
You have too much at stake,
I slam down the phone,
That's not a call I want to take.

A Matter of Trust

Do your friends have your back?
Do they love you at all?
Why do I shrink from the questions?
Why do I feel so small?
'Cause I'm afraid that the answers,
May not be good ones for sure?
I can't tell if you're lying,
I've been mistaken before,
But I don't want to be wrong this time,
That's too much to take,
To learn that one of my friends,
Is no more than a fake.

Thine Eyes Watch Me

Thine eyes watch me,
As I walk through the shelter of trees,
Gliding in and out of shadows,
A figure of the mist,
Hallucination or reality,
Lost in the dim morning light,
Thine eyes watch me,
As I lay on the forest floor,
A creature of the wood,
A nymph dancing to the tune of the piper,
Twirling on the mid-morning breeze,
Free as the birds in the sky,
Thine eyes watch me,
Running with the wind in my hair,
Without a care in the world,
Desires triumph over worries,
No reason to move on or rush,
A hush comes over the woods,
Thine eyes watch me,
The child inside everyone,
The beauty of the soul,
Innocence and trust,
Honesty and compassion,
Sweetness and light,
Thine eyes watch me,
And cry for the innocence lost.

The Consequences

My wretched soul,
Cast through the fires of torment,
Twisted and shaped in the depths of hell,
Thy horrors haunt me,
As I lay lifeless on the ground,
Thou art ever near,
Stalking as a cat does a mouse,
All sinewy strength as you prepare to pounce,
To feed off of my broken limbs,
And drink of my useless tears,
The minutes tick by as I lay here,
Waiting for the doom of my fate,
And I fear it is too late,
To change my ways and avoid this scene,
I plead for a chance to show,
That I can do better,
As I wait for the pain,
The ripping of flesh from bone,
I wake from this horrible nightmare,
And realize I'm all alone.

Untitled (as of yet)

To what do I owe this pleasure,
As selfish desires come together before mine eyes,
As I glide through the meadows of my dreams,
The seams are ripped from thy sheltered abode,
Breaking free from thy fretful bonds,
Thou art overcome by bravery,
To hasten away from thy wretched chambers,
Thy dangers melt away behind my bewildered eyes,
Pleasure censures the most troubled of dreams,
Horrors of the night fade under the rising sun,
And become one with the hazy day,
And with the setting of the sun,
Nightmares overcome the pleasure of rest,
Of thy troubled encounters,
Sweltering in the heat of thy misery,
Entrance me in my plague of dreams,
For thou art my inner spirit,
Thou art my will to conquer the threat of night,
To thee do I come to relieve the pressure,
Of the ever growing burden of life,
It is thou that collects my thoughts,
Thou who holds the mystery of escape,
For to sleep is to dream,
And dreams are but wishes,
Wrought with the threads of helpless desires,
To sleep forever sheer bliss,
As I wait for the morning,
And the nighttime's final kiss.

To anyone who reads this: I want everyone to tell me what you think this means. I don't care who you are, whether you like it or not, or anything like that, just tell me what you think it means. Oh and if you do or don't like it, you can tell me. I just want input on it.

A poem that I'm writing as I think (not previously written) we'll see if it's any good.

Out of Breath

I'm submerged in exhaustion,
Dragged under by the currents in my mind,
I'm looking for the respite,
That I can never quite find.

I'm being forced under the waves,
Of confusion and congestion,
Overwhelmed by hordes of answers,
Without knowing the question.

I'm dragged beneath the surface,
Of the ever growing pool,
With the strings of doubts and worries,
On an ever growing spool.

I'm running out of breath,
Suffocating without air,
And now I stop to wonder,
Does anybody even care?

Newer Poems

Remember: written for my mom

I guarantee that you remember the first word I said,
The first time I ever fell out of my bed,
The first nightmare that scared me to death,
And I bet you remember my very first breath,
And I'm sure you remember the first time I cried,
The very first teardrops that fell from my eyes,
The first time I stood up all on my own,
The first time you got angry enough to raise your tone,
The first time I walked onto a schoolbus,
And the first outfits you picked that made me put up a fuss,
The first "A" I got on an important test,
And all of the friends that I've called my best,
The only time we got you on April Fools,
And the first time I told you I hated school,
The first lie I told that you saw right through,
And the first time I told you I love you too,
Through the beginning years and those later in life,
You've been there constantly right by my side,
And I know that In the future,
No matter what I do,
You're my one and only mother,
And I owe it all to you.

Being Me

When I'm lonely,
I look to all the things that I have,
To keep me centered and stable,
And I'm able,
To look past all the things that I've lost,
To all the good that I've earned,
No matter the cost,
I didn't toss out my options,
I know just what I can do,
And when I'm through,
I'll know that I have earned my keep,
And I can sleep better knowing that I've done my best,
Because even if I don't outdo the rest of those trying,
I work for what I really want,
I don't let my dreams go to waste,
In my haste to get out of this forsaken city in this lonely state,
I've learned to wait for the good things in life,
I don't strive to reach them if the price is too high,
I'll just sit back and relax because there's no need for stress,
And I know that being patient is what gives me my edge,
To be what I can be and live my life to the fullest.

Without Sound: With a funny twist :-D

Can you imagine living if we didn't have sound?
Life just wouldn't be the same without CD's spinning 'round,
No stereos blasting the most popular songs,
Because there can't be a song without the music along,
There'd be no way to teach because the words wouldn't be known,
And you can't understand what you've never been shown,
There'd be no first words for the baby to come,
Because they wouldn't have sounds to learn their first words from,
There'd be no way to write what I'm writing right now,
Because if I never learned letters,
I wouldn't know how,
So it's lucky we are to hear what we hear,
But that doesn't mean I have to listen,
When you're shouting in my ear.

Think of Me

Think of me,
When you're all alone,
How the time has gone by,
How fast I've grown.

Think of me,
When you see a smile,
Because I'm always happy,
And smiles are worthwhile.

Think of me,
When you get a hug,
Because affection is key,
When it comes to love.

Think of me,
And think of the times,
That I made you laugh,
With my silly rhymes.

Think of me,
When times get tough,
And always remember,
When the going gets rough,
That I'll come running,
No matter what.

Old Poems that I found on my old computer

A New Friend

A laugh, a smile, A casual touch,
To the littlest gestures,That mean so much.

A kind word, a good mood,
A friendly face,
To the special memories,
You’ll never erase.

A special person,
An amazing friend,
To the lifetime of friendship,
Together till the end.

Alone

Alone,
No barriers,
Just me,
My thoughts,
My hopes,
My fears,
Shattered,
Speechless,
Thoughtless,
No strength,
No confidence,
Just me,
My weaknesses,My doubts,
Alone.

No Escape

I’m at a loss,
I fear there’s no escape,
The pain is immense,
The sorrow vast,
As far as the eye can see,
Pain spreads,
Fear erupts,
Anger builds,
Hope crashes,
No exits,
No breaks,
Only infinite sorrow,
Endless suffering,
Toils and strife,
Demands and conflicts,
My life,
My torment.

The Fear

Feeling down,
Lost and alone,
No one to run to,
No one to help,
Need a pick me up,
No one to care,
Need a friend,
No one is there,
Shaken and broken,
No where to run,
Sorrows unspoken,
The tears have begun,
No one to be there,
No one to see,
The pain and the fear,
That lives inside me.

Here's how old this next one is. It was written about CORY!!! Ha. That's a funny joke. I read it now and I'm like yeah right.

Man Of My Dreams

My life took a turn,The day I met you,
I changed for the better,
You’ve seen me through.

Though at times it’s tough,To get through the day,
You take my problems,
And throw them away.

You’ve touched my life,
Or so it seems,
I love you so much,You’re the man of my dreams.

And THIS one, was written AFTER Cory. It's not mean or anything, it's just obvious.

My Dream

You were my dream,
My only one,
But in the end it wasn't enough.

And though it seems,
That we are done,
For me the going is still rough.

You're all my thoughts,
You're in my head,
I have to push the thoughts away.

All joy you've brought,
Now pain instead,
Are lingering in my head to stay.

You were my dream,
My only one,
But now I must let go.

I won't forget the gleam,
Of memories and fun,
I just needed you to know

You Can't Stop Me<-- The heck of it is with this one, I don't even understand it. And I WROTE IT!!!

Walking around… no purpose no guide… stuck in this world of people that keep me outside… No presence of mind… I’m one of a kind… you leave me behind… sitting on the ground… I can’t hear a sound… I’m blind to your pain… Your loss is my gain… A beaten up lane… A road to an end… It’s all pretend… Go another round… I’ll get my revenge… When you’re gone… Just a pawn… I’ll be here… Always near… While you wither away… In your dismay… All your fear… Here I’ll lay… On this ground… Life rewound… I’m on the inside… You can’t stop me now.

With You

Right here,
Right now,
You’re all I’ve got,
In the dark,
The shadows,
The silence,
It’s you,It’s me,
Together,
Unbroken,
Inseparable,Bonded by friendship,
Companions,
Special,
Unique yet equal,
Similar yet different,
Together with you,
I’m happy.

As Porky Pig would say, That's All Folks!! Love yas.
KATY

New Poem (probably gonna call it Tired)

I'm just so tired that I can't even rest,
Sleep doesn't come easily, I just want to make one little nest,
And snuggle down into a peaceful stupor,
But I can't seem to do that, Because while everyone else is in dreamland,
I'm here, tossing and turning, Burrowing deeper into the blankets,
Suffocating from the heat but freezing if I take them off,
I'm burning, With the need for just one minute's peace,
And it's getting so hard to breathe,
Tangled up in these twisted sheets,
There's so much to do and so little time,
Thoughts burning in the back of my mind,
They just won't turn off, it's a constant drill,
The shrill of a horn drums through my head,
As I lay in my bed, fighting off worries,
Fighting for a good night's sleep,
Dreaming of the day when I will finally be okay,
To dream during a blissful slumber unlike any other,
With no worries beating down on my unconscious brain,
When that day will come, I wonder.

Storm's Poem (I intend to title it exactly that)

Regrets eat away at a troubled mind,
Of the things in the past that just didn’t go right,
And all of the things that just couldn’t be changed,
Are looked back on silently with inverted disdain.

You’re inner child weeps as you’re perpetually ignored,
It seems as if the pain is a forever striking chord,
You’re existing in a world where minds aren’t forgiving,
Existing unobtrusively but never fully living.

It seems as if it’s hopeless to continue with this life,
When every thing you do only leads to pain or strife,
But it’s worth it to go on, from beginning to the end,
Because as long as you keep living you will always have a friend!!!!

Love ya Storm. That last couplet is for you!
KATY

Last in the string of poetry for now

Responsibility

Responsibility,
I don’t have any,
I waste my time,
With frivolous rhymes,
That mean the world to me.

A quick and clever mind,
That’s something you won’t find,
I waste my skills,
With pens and quills,
Writing poems that are one of a kind.

A perfect memory,
Not something you will see,
I waste my thoughts,
On words that fought,
To get outside and breathe.

Secrets

It’s a secret that I keep,
When I see you in the hall,
When I’m awake, when I’m asleep,
Doing anything at all.

You’re the first thought in my head,
When I wake up every morn,
Should I tell you, maybe not?
My feelings are so torn.

I need you,
I don’t know how to say,
That you’re the one that gives me strength,
To make it through the days,
And though I know,
That you don’t have a clue,
I can’t help but wonder,
If I’m the one for you.

The Light of the World

You shine for everyone to see,
But most of all,
You shine for me,
When tear drops sparkle on my face,
It is your light that does erase,
The pain that causes them to fall,
When no one else can help at all,
Through all the sorrow I have gone,
It's you that's there to urge me on,
Through all the joy and games and fun,
It's you that shines on like the sun,
And as I grow I appreciate,
This light of yours that does not abate

Those Things We Do

It's just one of those things we do, Those crazy little deeds that make up our lives, That make us who we are today, In this world, In which we strive, To stand out and be the best, And come above all of the rest, Those things we do, That choose our paths, And let us see, If we can last, In this world and in this life, Through joy and hardship, Love and strife, Those things we do, That make us who, We want to be, Inside ourselves, Where we believe, That no one else, Can come between, Our hopes and dreams.

Time Goes By

Time flies,
I’m going fast,
All memories,
Go swiftly past,
My eyes shift through,
The muddled brain,
To bring back,
My life again,
Time goes on,
No stop no pause,
I’ve lost myself,
Without a cause,
I can’t slow down,
I cursed myself,
To skip through time,
To my own hell,
Time goes by,
I’m fixed in place,
You see the pain,
Upon my face,
As friends and loved ones,
Fail to see,
I’m slowly dying,
From misery,
As time flies on,
I bleed inside,
For those I love,
Don’t see me cry,
I hide these tears, This wrenching pain,
For the life I can’t
Have back again,
I’m lost in time,
As others live,
Their precious lives,
But don’t forgive,
The ones that trampled,
On their heart,
As my life crumbles,
I fall apart,
For I was given,
One last try,
And instead of living,
I said goodbye.

Why Me

Why me,
Why not somebody else,
I’m sick and tired of living life in this hell,
This misery,
It's getting so hard to breathe,
As I wait patiently for my fate,
What’s my diagnosis?
Psychosis,
I'm going crazy day by day,
And this pain just won't go away,
It getting harder more and more,
And I'm torn,
Between living just for one day more,
But I can't take this,
Disease inside,
This constant turmoil of a troubled mind,
And I'm losing control,
Of my life as a whole,
There's nothing left of this life,
Say goodbye.

Worn

I’m washed up,
Washed out,
On the ground,
Full of doubt,
Lying lifeless,
On the floor,
Broken,
Torn,
Bleeding,
Sore,
Battered,
Bruised,
I fall apart,
Hear no breathing,
Feel no heart,
Beating,
Burning,
Ripped and shorn,
Tired and helpless,
Body worn,
Lost in spirit,
Lost in mind,
Dead emotions,
Left behind,
Body weakened,
No more pain,
I say goodbye,
And drift away.

I particularly like the last one. I know it sounds evil and in a way it is but it is actually one of my favorites. Another of my favorites is Time Goes By. I tend to prefer my evil poems to the happy happy joy joy ones but I'll take your opinions if you offer them. Love yas.
KATY

MORE POEMS!!!

I Don’t Know

I don’t know what to do,
I don’t know how to feel,
I don’t know how to make you see,
This pain in me is real.

I don’t know what to think,
I don’t know what to say,
I don’t know how to show you the way,
Back to my side to stay.

I don’t know why you don’t want me,
I don’t know why I care,
I don’t know why I stay right here,
When I know you’re over there.

I don’t know when this pain will leave,
I don’t know where it’ll go,
I don’t care about you anymore,
That’s one thing that I know. <------(Not a big fan of that one myself)

I Love You

For all the times I fussed,
When you tried to cheer me up,
And all the times I didn't trust,
That you loved me enough.

For all the times I doubted,
You were really there for me,
And all the times I shouted,
Or made you unhappy.

This is my I'm sorry,
My forgive me,
That's for sure,
Because for all the times I caused you pain,
I love you ten times more. <--------------(That one however I love)

I Want You to Know

I want you to know… through good times or bad… I’ll be right here waiting… I won’t let you go… I want you to know… I’ll be here by your side… whenever you need me… I’ll be there to show… that you mean so much… you’re so gentle and kind… all the pain in the past that you’ve helped put behind… is a tribute to you… and the kind things you do… that help me see through… the pain in my mind… I want you to know… how important you are… how you’ve helped me to grow… how you’ve brought me this far… how much that I care… that I’ll always be there… that you are my shining star.

If You Were Mine

If you were mine,
I’d know what to do,
I’d spend my time,
Being there for you.

If you were mine,
I’d have the world,
To spend my time,
Being just your girl.

If you were mine,
I’d have the best,
Guy you can find,
Among the rest.

If you were mine,
I know I’d be,
The luckiest girl,
You’d ever meet.

I’m Me

I can't be anyone else,
It's not how I work,
If you want me to change,
You might as well look the other way,
I don't change for you or for anyone else,
My life is my own whether it's heaven or hell,
I challenge myself,
I don't live for your words,
If you think that I will,
Then you're being absurd,
'Cause there's nothing you can do,
And there's nothing you can say,
To make me want to change myself,
Or be any other way.

I’m Sorry

For all the things I said,
To kick you while you were down,
When everyone else wouldn’t leave you alone,
I became another one of the crowd.

To badger and to bother,
A nuisance in itself,
I should have been the one to change,
To be on your side, to help.

I should have been the one to know,
One push would be enough,
To make you turn your back on me,
I shouldn’t have been so tough.

Instead I had to be the one,
To push you off the ledge,
I won’t bother you anymore,
And that one thing I pledge.

My Brother

You’re part of my life... through the pain and the strife… through good times and bad times… you make things alright… I love you… I need you… you help see me through… the mistakes that I’ve made and continue to do… you help fix my problems… before they occur… though why you do it… I’m not quite sure… you don’t have to help me… you have your own needs… there are no ties to bind you… to my pain or to me… but you’re still always there… when I need you to care… when I can’t tell the good from the bad… and I hope that you know… that a brother is more… than blood and to have you I’m glad. <------(This one was dedicated to my "big brother" Jordan)

Never Good Enough

I’m tired of living life this way,
When trouble refuses to go away,
When problems arise from who knows what?
When one door closes and the other stays shut,
When nothing goes right and it’s all just a mess,
And everything’s failing with no hint of success,
You can’t seem to make it through all of the pain,
And others just use you for personal gain,
It’s hardly a secret so there’s no need to pretend,
That as soon as it is over it’s not really the end,
Of all that you knew and all that you are,
Because everyone told you you weren’t up to par,
There’s no need to remember the lack of happiness or love,
Just because what people saw was never good enough.

Reminder

Hope is a reminder,
Of the treasures in our lives:

A single flower in winter snow,
Just struggling to survive,

That one bright smile that warms us up,
When we feel cold inside,

That one bright sunbeam to show through,
The opening in the clouds,

That one good friend that cheers you up,
When you are feeling down,

Hope is a reminder,
Of the things we take to heart,

In the world around, the things we do,
It keeps us from falling apart.

More Poems (There will be several poem blogs)

Heaven

We can only guess the splendor,
Of the heavens up above,
Sitting on the earth we wonder,
Of the God and son we love.

Though we know not their features,
Nor their attitudes of grace,
They remain for us great teachers,
Of the sinful human race.

Through the torments and the pain,
All the terrors of the past,
In heaven they remain,
Till they heal the very last.

Deserted

Feeling deserted,
Lost and alone,
Broken and shattered,
No where to go,
No where to hide,
No one to help,
Living in silence,
I’m sick of this hell,
Tortured and taunted,
No way out,
Can’t get away,
No other route,
Can’t escape,
No exit,
No doorway to heaven,
No peaceful abyss,
No bliss,
Just pain,
Weak and frail,
Again,
Insane,
On the edge of a rail,
Lost not found,
Arms and legs bound,
One place,
One destiny, No way around,
No space,
No time,
Want this release,
Free to leave,
Deceived,
Unknowing,
The path to take,
To rid my life,
Of all heartache,
Feeling deserted,
Lost and alone,
One place to go,
Take me home.

Feel It

Maybe you can’t feel it… but it’s tangible and real… the feeling that unites us… and puts on us it’s seal… the love that intertwines… with the joy and sorrow combined…to make us who we are… to connect us from afar… maybe you can’t feel it… but it won’t go away… the love that has been forged… will continue on each day… the kinship that’s been created… will be strong because we made it… you may not feel it but it’s here to stay.

Friendship

When you feel like you’re deserted,
And you know you’re feeling down,
Just look to those that love you,
To relieve you of your frown.

Good Enough

Don’t give up,
It’s worth the fight,
Just stand your ground,
Everything’s alright,
It will work out,
It’s not so tough,
Don’t doubt or,
Think you’re not good enough,
For someone else’s,
Twisted reality,
It doesn’t matter, As long as you see,
You’re more important,
Than what they say,
You’re good enough,
For any day, They’ll see the truth,
In your eyes,
Of all the things,
That they despise,
Will not be you,
But their reflection,
And give you nothing,
But affection,
For whom you are,
Is good enough,
For anyone,
Who wants your love.

Hope

Hope is in the world around us,
Everywhere we go,
Like the children with their innocence,
Seen playing in the snow.

Like the wrinkly old faces,
Of our elders in the world,
Sitting peacefully content,
With the way their life unfurled.

As a tree that starts out as a seed,
And grows as humans do,
There is hope found all around us,
Through the old days and the new.

Yet again, you do not have to read all of these poems. I like to write no matter what so it really doesn't matter if you like to read. Love yas.
KATY